Tag: work
Late At Night When The World Is Sleeping
I finally went to the doctor. Been losing too much weight that my watch and pants are basically just hanging there loosely. Ready to drop off at any point of time.
Went to the doctor because of the spasm due to my indigestion problem. I’ve this problem since my days in Brisbane. The cause to it is so simple, STRESS! The number one killer. To add up to it, I have gastric too. I did Endoscopy a few years back and the reason behind my gastric is STRESS too.
Haih. Am on MC tomorrow due to a lil temperature. I’m back on reflux pills but at least this time it’s less than a week. I remember I had to take them for 3 months and was under strict monitoring. I’m still up because I’ve to take my medication at 2am.
Tyrone is ill too. Puked over 6 times. Tomorrow I’d go to the pet store and look for fur ball food. Let’s just hope it’s nothing much. Just hairball stuck at their throat or tummy.
I’m going to try to get some rest and relax my overly worked brain.
Good night.
Honest Truth
I’ve been away from my blog for a while now. No lame excuses to give. But instead I’ve the brutal truth to share.
I’ve been in a total bad shape recently. How bad you may wonder? I broke down on one fine Friday while I was getting ready to work, all pumped up. Suddenly I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks. It went on and on. I couldn’t even stop it. I changed into my house clothes and went back under the sheets. Whipped up my phone and texted my bosses.
I’m exhausted and unhappy.
Family
I’m trying very hard to be a great daughter and sister. Trying hard to contribute to the daily household needs. Trying to provide Aizat with a comfortable life.
Somehow I feel like nobody appreciates me for anything that I try to do at home. I help them out in ways that I can. But whenever I need them, nobody is there for me. I feel very much alone. Maybe I shouldn’t be here with them. Maybe I’m nothing in their eyes.
Mean Green
In my struggle to make ends meet and pull through every month, I wish I had more.
Am currently spread across all accounts at work with my other business at hand to focus on.
Am in the middle of revamping jujuwiwitata’s at no such luck. I don’t have a supportive support system. Always pushing me down. Shooting down my ideas without even listening to a word that I utter.
The Great Indoors has finally launched. We’re currently working very hard trying to expand our clienteles. Working extra hard on it trying to spread the word.
I’m already handling three jobs and my financial needs are nowhere to match! This is tiring. This makes me want to give up. Should I take up a new job? Or should I take up more jobs?
Trying to pull through every month is tiring enough for me.
Friends
I am blessed with many. Some truly close. Some fairly close. I love them to bits. I hope to not be back stabbed like the many times I have been. I hope to have learnt my lessons of not being too nice to them and let them step all over me like a doormat.
Some of my friends are genuinely caring about me; this bunch is the one that have seen me at my lowest low and highest high. I love you guys and you know who you are.
Relationship
At this point of time, am not too sure what I have done to myself.
In 2008, I told myself I won’t date. It’s a waste of time and effort. I was hurt so bad back then. A break up that didn’t exactly had a reason behind it.
As years pass me by, I soften a bit. I opened up my heart to at least let some new people into it. I was told to let down my guard and give him a chance. Which I did, I was over the moon, happy beyond words. Getting to know each other was such a joyful journey. The similarities and differences was an interesting lesson.
However, I’ve never really been a lucky soul in the relationship department. Always getting dumped, cheated and used. It took a total turn. I had my arguments to it. But I kept quiet. You may wonder why? I’ve always believed that it’s good and best to respect other people’s decision. So mum it is.
It was really tough to digest but what choice do I have right?
So here I am now, sticking to what I know best.
Every guy’s best friend and not their dream girl. I’d live.
Health
My health has taken a toll on me. From tooth problems to my gastric kicking in again. Losing weight by the second. Always feeling lethargic. It feels like 2008 on repeat.
I can’t afford to go for a medical check up. I know if I went for one, the doctor is going to put me back on reflux pill and my weight will be monitored closely.
Insyallah I’d get out of this rut. Insyallah.
Q4
Quarter four of 2011 is definitely a challenge for me. Especially from the financial aspects.
So many things happening at one go.
1. My toothache needs to be fixed with a root canal and killing of the nerve.
2. My car is due for a new set of spark plugs and alignment.
3. Installments to pay.
4. To fix all my websites.
5. I now have cats to maintain. Trying to provide them with a healthy, fun and safe home ain’t so easy after all.
6. Friend’s birthdays.
7. In dire need of a new black handbag. My bag has died on me. Leather peeling off. Strap falling apart. To add to it, am very picky with my handbags.
8. Need to go to the skin specialist. Skin is acting up again. This must be due to stress.
9. Car needs a good wax as there are acid stains from the office parking lot.
10. My car needs a fresh coat of film.
The list goes on but you get the drift. Hoping to pull through.
Working hard to earn more. Come on now Juwita. Work harder.
I Know Now
I’ve gotten the answer that I’ve been seeking for awhile now.
I’ve to do this. It’s for the best of me.
Horoscope 31 July 2011
The best way to deal with someone who is petty today is not to deal with that person at all. You are in a significant period of deep thinking, Aries. You have reached a point where you are examining what’s really important in life, and someone who is cheap or unkind or lacking in compassion will be hard for you to tolerate. If you do have to deal with such a person now, try to see that person as sympathetic. He or she has not reached your level of evolution, and is missing out on some of the most wonderful and significant aspects of life. Be empathic, and you may bring out the best in someone.
Only So Much
Only so much I can do as a human. There’s a limit to just about everything in life. You can try to push yourself. Yet your body will be a better judge to it.
I was pushing my luck this pass few weeks. Not listening to the gentle hints the body was sending out. Bam. Over the weekend, I suddenly lost it all. Too tired. Throat flared up. Falling asleep in public places. Not such a great thing ain’t it.
My body has shut down on me. So much has happened. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically. Gotta get back to my A-game. I’ve lost some weight thanks to being too tired all the time. I must have been the worst company during the few weeks.
I’m going to balance it out again. Must stay focus. Must work according to time frame. Shall not try to be a super hero.
Good night. Will write more. Maybe more ranting post…who is game?
