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Let’s Talk About Love

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What is love?

Love to me is a feeling, a feeling so great it consumes you. It makes you feel whole. It makes you feel loved and appreciated. It makes you want to be a better you.

 

Why chose love?

Why not? It makes you happy. The happiest happy. I won’t lie, not every day is sunshine and rainbows. I would be delusional to say that there won’t be bad days. But it is worth it with the right person. Love also triggers happiness and some good hormones.

 

Who deserves love?

My heart decides who is deserving of my love. What I see in that person might not be something the receiver or outsiders might realize. Because this connection is between you and I. All I know is you deserve my love despite how you think because you are worth it and you are human.

 

How to love?

There are many ways to love. It could be professing of love via words, action, affection and so forth. You could show love by being there for them, letting them know they are safe and you’ve got their back.

When to love?

There is never a right time to love because that’s just how life works. So if you have found someone you love. Just love them with all that you have.

Why do I choose to love?

I crave witty banters, serious conversations, random ramblings, affection, eye contact. A hand to hold through it all.

I believe there is no winning alone. Good things comes in a pair (ask them Chinese, they’d agree).

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Can You See The Silver Line Right There?

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Week commencing 22 January has been particularly challenging.

I don’t even know where to begin. So many things that I could possibly imagine went wrong.

My back is in a lot of pain. My wrist too, my Carpal Tunnel is back. The sifu said I’m tired. Yeah he got it right.

Friday was so so challenging and depressing to be among them of black and whites. To know it will be on me to make yet another sacrifice. I cried every moment I was alone. Crawled back in bed to forget things and hustled after the power nap.

My car suddenly won’t start. Let’s hope it is just the TCM.

It feels so long and bad. But shit happens. If I dwell, I doubt it gets better. Plus I firmly believe positive thoughts attract positivity.

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Happy Yappy Yay!

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It was when I was out with my dad that he suddenly said to me…
A : I like you happy. You seem so much happier now. I’m glad he makes you happy. You’ve cried too much.

I couldn’t react, I smiled and said “Yes, I am happy”.

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Oh Today!

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Today, I mean Saturday was eventful. I had a quick nap with Ann in my cousin’s room. I have been pretty beat lately due to my mental exhaustion from thinking. Cracking this brief, trying to build this brand.

I took another nap just now after feeling so so down from the expected shit. Now my mind is boggling on how to solve it, I know I always pull through. But once in a while can’t I walk down an easier path?

I understand the fact that Allah challenges his toughest soldiers. Don’t I deserve a break once in a while? Cut me some slack too.

I’d be ok tomorrow. I know I will.

Two proposals done. One more proposal to be done. One marketing plan and I’m solid for the week ahead with some BD to develop.

I can and I shall do this.

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Glow Gain

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Indeed I have finally gained weight to my surprise. All along this has been a particular challenging thing to be done. I have tried many methods but it hasn’t been that successful. A lot of people have been commenting on it too. Mostly really positive comments but the jealous ones…are extremely negative about it.

But hey, I ain’t here to please you.

In all honesty, I don’t think my food intake has doubled because I have always love food and I eat a lot. Perhaps I eat on time now.

But I think one of the biggest factor would be I sleep better now. I get more sleep too lately, it has turn into a routine. Previously I did sleep a lot, but my timing was so random and bad. It was never a concern of mine despite knowing how crucial it is. I am very grateful that I am constantly reminded of sleep and the hours that I need to clock in.

The biggest factor has got to be the fact that I am happy. To be able to dump such toxic influence from my life has been life changing. It’s just so liberating and refreshing. Wee! I’m at a place of my life where it might not be what I had planned for myself but I’m happy and blessed with how it is shaping to be.

Alhamdulillah.

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Not The Same

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Different people, different stroke.

I strongly believe in this saying. It’s so simple yet explains how different individuals do things. I don’t think it is bad. I think there is strength in everyone. There is always good in the bad.

However, not everyone thinks so. Which is sad. Because if society saw this as a plus point, together we can achieve so much more. Leverage on each other’s strength.

I for one know that I am not build like you or you or even you. I am my own woman, with my own strengths and weaknesses. I am perfectly imperfect with room to improve and grow. But today, my positivity took the best of me.

It saddens me time and time of how this basic thing isn’t recognized. I have never expected anybody to be me or to be like me. I accept people the way they are without judging, if they don’t tickle my fancy, I will walk away and save myself from it.

This current situation that I am in has proven itself that it is set to doom on loop. I expected more thinking that experience would give it an upper-hand but I’ve been proven wrong multiple times.

Two of my greatest strength are :

  1. Play pretend
  2. Selling smoke

However, it is not noticed. My background and accomplishments carries no weight to it cause nothing can be seen beyond it. My award says a lot but nothing to who does not want to appreciate the strength of others.

Do I prevail or do I go back to my own strength and rely on myself.

I am pass the age and stage of life where I wanna be consumed by misery, happiness is key to me. My sanity too.

Ya Allah give me the right guidance and strength to push through a lil bit more.

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