I’ve been told I shouldn’t write things on my site. Yea I suppose I shouldn’t but then again I’m not someone who is expressive. I talk a lot, but I don’t express.
My true feelings are always well kept. I am very good at playing pretend that you wouldn’t know how or what I am feeling. To make it worst, even when I am sick I don’t show it.
I used to think that showing my true feelings and sharing them with people is a sign of weakness. And it also gets me into trouble as people use it against me. But the truth is, any of you who I actually share this things would and should actually feel honoured. Cause I’m actually someone who has the highest wall of defence to shut people out.
But to some, it’s wrong to having this kind of feelings.
It makes me so confuse of how to act. When I shut it out I’m an ice queen (many have called me that). Some even said I’m staunch.
Maybe we think that surviving is good enough But does it fulfil your inner soul?
It doesn’t for me. So I’m gonna strive as I live my life and accomplish my goals along the way.
Sometimes we are all afraid of moving forward simply because the past feels safer and more familiar. But isn’t life a journey? Self discovery?
I should constantly remind myself to always improve and grow myself.
Don’t worry about money. Money is a game, find ways to work together as a team to win it. It never helps when teammates fight. Figure out ways to leverage both persons strength to win.
Phone’s wonky. Been trying to save it since 8pm.
Woke up today pretty psyched to go for my interview and get kicking with work. I was away for 5 days. Technically I was never away despite being on leave. Clients disrespected the fact I was on leave. Called and texted despite me telling them I wasn’t working. I told them to send out emails but hey it all failed.
We have many ongoing and new businesses to chase after. But damn life took a total flip.
At this point of time, I’m anticipating my whole life to collapse right in front of my naked eyes. The support I needed from the person I work with doesn’t seem to be there. But instead is going against me after all I have done.
I have no idea what kind of life I have after 4 pm today. Maybe it’s the end.
I leave it in the hands of the Al-Mighty cause I have done more than enough.
I need some positivity, why not share it with everyone too.
Was talking to someone really dear to me. Someone I’ve jumped hurdles for. Someone who I would take a bullet without a blink. Someone I would give up my life for. Someone who I would sacrifice my happiness in exchange of a smile on their face.
But when I encounter a situation that I need a solution, I was named a price higher than it was for their more padded friends.
I was in shock, humiliated in some ways. But as usual, I keep it to myself. I must really be unimportant to you.