Immortal Beloved Letters

Beethoven’s Immortal Beloved Letters

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits – Yes, unhappily it must be so – You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart – never – never – Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life – Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men – At my age I nedd a steady, quiet life – can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day – therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once – Be calm, only by a clam consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine

ever mine

ever ours

I’ve been watching SATC movies to destress myself from work and things. I’m not someone who tears up easily while watching a movie unless it’s a Hindu number. But that scene when Carrie hit Big with her wedding bouquet in anger and how Charlotte looked so angry. I cried. I don’t know why I chocked up. Maybe I knew deep inside I was deserving of being angry. I wish I could but I’ve decided to be the bigger person as usual and forgave.

SATC isn’t my favourite show because I can’t comprehend some attributes of theirs but the four women, their strength and character is rather prominent and beautiful.

The clothes is mad love. My respect to them for cladding heels always.

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Butterflies

That sudden fuzziness that warms the heart. It burns the cheeks a deep red. Stealing glances once in a while. Unsure of what to say or do. So shy all of a sudden. Confidence level plunged from 100 to 0 within a second. Stomach filled with butterflies.

Oh this feeling, never knew it still existed. Never knew I still had it in me.

Thank you for fluttering on me you butterfly, you. So brief yet so significant.

You definitely restored a lot of faith in me. Grateful indeed I am.

FYI, I used to collect a lot of butterfly objects and prints as I too love Mimi.

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Now Playing #2

  1. Ning Baizura – Selagi Ada…Cinta
  2. Nadira Adnan – Sayang
  3. Ten2Five – I Will Fly
  4. Mike Mohede – Kucinta Dirinya
  5. Audy – Pencuri Hati
  6. Cokelat – Jauh
  7. RAN – Dekat Di Hati
  8. Zizan, SonaOne – Chentaku
  9. Dayang Nurfaizah – Dia
  10. Nora – Hanya Satu
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Sleepyhead

I am a bit more disciplined now since I have started working. My bedtime still differs from day to day depending on my workload or how easily I fall asleep. But I wake up at 0630 hours on weekdays. I solat and am up. If am at my place, I gotta plan my commute. If am at my parent’s, I’d play with Ann (not my child, am no janda anak satu ok?) before she heads to school.

Below are some tips that I have found useful and testing out too. I’ve to change my previous sleep routine due to some circumstances.

  1. Don’t drink too much before you sleep.
    – especially true for me as I digest in such a jiffy
  2. Read a book.
    – calms your storm and gains more knowledge
  3. Write.
    – exactly what am doing right about now 🙂
  4. Try a sound machine or app.
    – yet to try but maybe soon
  5. Less technology.
    – no scrolling of timeline before sleep or phone might fall smack to ya face
  6. Create a sleep routine.
    – getting there right about now

Getting enough sleep is definitely beneficial for an old fart like me. Haha. Gonna try to up my sleeping hours to feel much much better. This has indeed been good for me and sets me in the right mood daily. Gonna also incorporate a more solid breakfast into my mornings too.

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