I’ve come across many personal life experience where my intuition was right. Maybe they were a gentle warning to me. Some was a good sign and some was a bad sign.
2003, a particular name was always mentioned in the conversations between my ex and I. True enough, they dated behind my back.
I remember this particular one in July 2011, I was at the happiest peak of my life. It was definitely my best and worst year. I was truly content with everything I had, it was everything and more that I could have wished for.
In that month, I noticed some odd texting between this guy I was dating and someone. I kept mum despite noticing how inappropriate the time that the SMSs were received. I felt uneasy but I’m a firm believer of trust. I thought to myself if there was something, he would tell me.
A month down the road, we had the talk. He isn’t ready and doesn’t want anything serious. Was I right to assume the coincidence? I didn’t simply because I respect the person and the future situation.
But then months down the road, there was B&W prove of how chummy things got. Perhaps it did happen behind my back when I noticed the oddness. I should have trusted my instincts.
Sometimes the better side of me tells myself, always give the benefit of the doubt to the other person. Or maybe I think highly of someone I care and respect, that I give all my trust to them.
I’ve iced up again because I’m too scared and this applies to all aspects of my life; work, family, friends and heart.
So that popped up in a conversation. Saying you ought to stick to your principles. But I strongly say it’s just a matter of saying. It all boils down to your actions. Cause I am an exhibit of words being said out of your principles. I was never given the fairness that should have justified my chance.
Sigh. The world holds no justice.