Juwita Jalil » memories http://www.juwitajalil.com Juwita's Tue, 27 Jul 2010 05:06:53 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 en hourly 1 All I Ever Wanted http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/07/08/all-i-ever-wanted/ http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/07/08/all-i-ever-wanted/#comments Wed, 07 Jul 2010 17:11:31 +0000 juwita http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/07/08/all-i-ever-wanted/ All I ever wanted was purely simple. I felt like it wasn’t too much to ask for.

I wanted cute little texts when you thought of me.
I wanted my tuck me into bed/my daily recap call.
I wanted to wake you up. So you could be the first voice I heard everyday.
I wanted you to wish me good night. So you’d be the last person I spoke too.
I wanted you to hug me when I was overwhelmed with life.
I wanted to be in your arms to feel safe.
I wanted you to be proud of me.
I wanted to look up to you in all aspects.
I wanted to be there for you all the time.
I wanted to be the person to keep you happy.
I wanted to be the person who cooked you your favourite meals.
I wanted to take care of you.
I wanted to grow old with you.
All I ever wanted was to love you unconditionally till the very end.
But it was too much to ask for.

Well a girl can dream right?

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Or are we running out of time? Did time run it’s cause?

Or is it time?

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- Juwita Jalil

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- Juwita Jalil

I’ve lost two grandfathers, one grandmother, one step-grandmother, an uncle and a few friends throughout my 25 years.

Most of it was shocking. Some was a painful process. Nonetheless, it hurts. I miss them. It’s painful to watch them slip away from you.

Today, I watched a dear aunt of mine laying on the bed with all sorts of tubes going through her nose and mouth. It looked painful. But she didn’t budge. Called out her name with no response. She’s in the deepest sleep known to man, coma. I miss how jovial she was. Making jokes. Remembering going for Hari Raya at her place. How she loves coming over to our house. Eating the cookies I made.

There was this one time, when I was much younger. I served her my burnt cookies and she still at them with a big smile on her face.

As I was sitting next to her with a Yasin in hand. I thought I saw her moving her head. I thought I saw it twice. Maybe am delusional at that point. But even my dad said he saw it. My dad touched her hand. There was no response.

Family members have gathered. Hoping she will fight. Hoping for a miracle.

I’ve learn my lesson. I won’t let the people I love slip away. I will cherish each and everyone of my family members and friends. I won’t hold back in love. We will never know when our time is up or theirs for all that matters.

I love my family. I love my friends. I love you.

xx

p/s : Don’t go just yet Teh. We all love you. Fight.

pp/s : By the way, my lovely aunt has passed on.

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is just a momentary feeling,
a feeling that gives you butterflies,
drifting you off to somewhere beautiful,
lost in a world only you know where,
you’ll be caught up within your own emotions,
what used to be ordinary seems so bizarre,
the littlest things are what makes you smile,
their voice is like the sweetest melody,
while their words are the secret lyrics,
to the rhythm in your head,their presences is a bliss…a perfect bliss.

love…
it leads us to uninvited jealousy,
leading us to pain,the bumpy roads we take,
sleepless nights we suffer,
questions we wish we had the answers to.

love…
is just an illusion,
yet we seek for it,
we hunger gor it,
but why?
simply because…it makes you feel special to know that someone loves you.

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So my secret place is somewhere near home. Not so crowded, serves good food at a reasonable price. The ventilation isn’t great but I just love this place. It’s cozy. A few pictures from the night.

]]> http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/04/30/my-secret-place/feed/ 2 It Won’t Stop http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/04/11/it-wont-stop/ http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/04/11/it-wont-stop/#comments Sun, 11 Apr 2010 15:42:05 +0000 juwita http://www.juwitajalil.com/?p=819 “Always remember that if a person loved u once, even after a hundred years there’ll still be some of that love left.”

- TLS

]]> http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/04/11/it-wont-stop/feed/ 0 I Only Say It Because I Mean It With All My Heart http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/03/09/i-only-say-it-because-i-mean-it-with-all-my-heart/ http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/03/09/i-only-say-it-because-i-mean-it-with-all-my-heart/#comments Mon, 08 Mar 2010 17:03:05 +0000 juwita http://www.juwitajalil.com/?p=796 “When I say, “I love you,” it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.”

- Joss Whedon

]]> http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/03/09/i-only-say-it-because-i-mean-it-with-all-my-heart/feed/ 0 Rocking Away http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/02/23/rocking-away/ http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/02/23/rocking-away/#comments Mon, 22 Feb 2010 16:40:48 +0000 juwita http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/02/23/rocking-away/ My holiday was awesome. Else than my sudden gastric attacks. Its been great.
Had an impromptu trip with the family to Penang. Had some gloriously scrumptious food. But the weather was eratic! Blazing hot sun.
I did manage to sleep in. pig out and hang out. I’ll update the blog with some pretty pictures soon.

p/s : I miss a specific brown cupcake!

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