Tag: health
Hoping for A Miracle
“If you love someone. Tell it up front. Even if it hurts. Even if it’s not right. Even if you can’t be together. They could be gone tomorrow.”
- Juwita Jalil
I’ve lost two grandfathers, one grandmother, one step-grandmother, an uncle and a few friends throughout my 25 years.
Most of it was shocking. Some was a painful process. Nonetheless, it hurts. I miss them. It’s painful to watch them slip away from you.
Today, I watched a dear aunt of mine laying on the bed with all sorts of tubes going through her nose and mouth. It looked painful. But she didn’t budge. Called out her name with no response. She’s in the deepest sleep known to man, coma. I miss how jovial she was. Making jokes. Remembering going for Hari Raya at her place. How she loves coming over to our house. Eating the cookies I made.
There was this one time, when I was much younger. I served her my burnt cookies and she still at them with a big smile on her face.
As I was sitting next to her with a Yasin in hand. I thought I saw her moving her head. I thought I saw it twice. Maybe am delusional at that point. But even my dad said he saw it. My dad touched her hand. There was no response.
Family members have gathered. Hoping she will fight. Hoping for a miracle.
I’ve learn my lesson. I won’t let the people I love slip away. I will cherish each and everyone of my family members and friends. I won’t hold back in love. We will never know when our time is up or theirs for all that matters.
I love my family. I love my friends. I love you.
xx
p/s : Don’t go just yet Teh. We all love you. Fight.
pp/s : By the way, my lovely aunt has passed on.
Holiday
Am pretty pysched for the holidays. Why? Well I really need it. I need my rest. But then again, I’ve too many things to be done. I want to sleep in. Pig out and hang out this holidays. I will do it. I must!
Things To Do 13/2/2010
- Send lil bro to work
- Swim
- Buy Chinese newspaper, scan, upload to the website and email all
- Post
- Photostat my documents
Til then. I want to sleep early tonight as well! Night night all.
Something To Ponder On
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”
Under The Weather
The haze has really been acting up. You can smell how bad our air is now. It’s so bad that you can taste burnt in your mouth. I’ve started wearing a mask. It may look right down ridiculous or even kiasu. But heck, my life is more important.
It’s not just the haze that is scaring me. The weather is getting eratic, one second it’s all scortching hot. The next second it’s raining cats and dogs.
Many of us are frequent visitors to the clinic. This sudden changes in the weather leads to migrane, fever, flu, asthma and many more.
To make things worst, the number of H1N1 cases has increased rapidly. Total of death has been alarming. It’s a real silent killer. I’ve personally experienced someone whom I know, dying from it. So please take precaution. Our lives are precious.
When you fall sick or ill, what cross your mind? As for me, it would be how he used to take care of me. Such gentleness, such patiences, the attentiveness and the love. The encouraging words. I miss that warmth.
What To Do Cockadoodledoo
What would you do after a long day at work, at uni or perhaps after a long day? All I would want to do is press number 7 on my mobile. Then I’d roll around in bed telling my stories and asking about his well-being. Talk cock. Joke and laugh my ass off. The sound of his voice is my instant pick me up.
What would you do, if you had free movie or concert passes? Who would you want to go with? It’d definitely be my #7.
If ever I was in pain, say for example I have a stomache. I’ll send a short text to my #7. In return I wanted an empathy text with a little comforting words and I’d be smiling from ear to ear. Forgetting the fact that am in pain.
At times, I’d have trouble sleeping. First thing I’d do is press #7 and he’d put me back to bed. I’d be knocked out within seconds listening to the soothing voice.
So what am I to do now? Press #7? I wish. But instead I don’t and can’t. I promised myself that he deserves what he wished for. Thus, I shall respect his decisions. While I playfully press the numbers without calling.
What to do cockadoodledoo!
The Heat
The weather has been acting up lately. It’s just effing hot. It’s unbearable.
I went for a facial on Monday and got a scalp, head and shoulder massage. It was just awesome. Well to me it was. Am a sucker for massages. I’d waste money on massages and reflexology ;p
In hope of feeling all fresh and hyped up. Instead, I’ve been popping my blue pills again. Well, their Synflex. A migraine buster. I’ve been having a massive headache and body aches. It’s so bad. I’ve been sleeping endlessly. I can’t seem to feel well rested. I sleep, open my eyes for a split second, sleep again.
I think it’s bad. At least I don’t have a temperature. So going to go sleep now. I’ve to take my grandma for her check up tomorrow. Will blog about my friend’s beautiful wedding soon. Pretty pictures as well.
Night ya alls!
On a lighter note. I so want this. So pretty.
*wishing upon the stars*
Nine West's : Trail Mix Clutch
Target
Ever since I was a little girl, I had a mission in life. I had targets and goals to achieve. I was a go-getter, never settling for second best.
I excelled academically, did sports, played music, sang in the National Youth Choir, danced for MATIC and the list goes on. I was an over achiever all rounder.
I grew up, still driven as ever. But last year, everything changed. It all stopped abruptly. I lost the spark within me. I didn’t know who I was. I could not see my purpose. I slaved myself at work. Got totally engrossed in it. I forgot how to have fun. I couldn’t differentiate a friend to a foe.
I took a break from it all and am proud to say that I can finally see myself again. I know who my friends are. Who to turn to. Am slowly smiling again. At least I know now.
Currently am taking one thing at a time. No more juggling. No more trying to be wonderwoman. Am resetting my goals and putting my priorities first. I’ve got my drive within me. It’s always been in me. It never left. That thing that keeps me striving and keeps me alive.
Baby steps for now.
The Brave Drink
Alcohol is an organic compound from the hydroxyl group that is bound together by a carbon atom. Also refers to ethanol which is found in the alcoholic beverages.
Alcoholic beverages are commonly known as alcohol. Alcohol is categorized into three groups : beers, wines and spirits.
Beer
Beer is largely consumed and is the oldest type of alcohol. It is also very popular that it is rated third most consumed drinks after water and tea. It’s mainly derived from cereal grains. Drinking beer at a warmer temperature brings out the flavour while drinking beer at a cooler temperature is believed to be more refreshing.
Wine
Wine is made out of fermented grape juice. Its taste is sweet and rich. The older the wine, the better it taste. Some people collect wine, the value of older wine is really expensive.
Spirit
Spirit us also known as distilled beverage or liquor. It is a drinkable liquid that contains ethanol that is made from distilled fermented grain, fruit or vegetables. There are no sugar added.
I do not consume alcohol. It is against my religious beliefs and my personal belief. But I have nothing against individuals who drinks. That is a choice that they have made. So be it. For as long as they respect my decision and do not force me into drinking, I’ll be fine.
I dislike it when people use alcohol as an excuse for their behaviour. Drinking alcohol comes responsibility. There has been so many cases where this phrase is being used, “It wasn’t me. It was the alcohol talking.”
Both girls and guys take advantage of this drunken status. Doing outrages things that they wouldn’t normally do. Mostly this drunken actions would lead to regrets, while some might be great. Oh yes, shall we not forget the hangover that occurs the next day.
Drunkards can also be a sore sight. Especially if their girls. Turning red, stripping clothes off, chasing after guys, kissing another girl, some start getting physical. This is an excuse to seek attention from guys. To a certain point it would seem hot and sexy. But once you pass the barrier of disrespecting yourself. It makes you cheap and easy.
Remember, drinking comes with great responsibilities.
Consuming too much alcohol can lead to alcoholism which has it’s effects. Alcohol’s effects is divided into two : short term and long term.
So, drink wisely.
Weight Gain
I have been trying to put on weight since forever. It’s not that I am unhealthy. It’s just the pressure that I get from people around me. It’s not like I pray to God daily “Oh god, please pretty please make me skinny.”
I’ve always been thin or perhaps in normal people’s language. SKINNY. I hate that word. It hurts when people comment about my weight. There’s not much that I can do about it. I’ve tried to gain weight and it ain’t easy. Trust me.
I don’t go around pointing fingers, laughing, smirking and commenting at fat people. But they do it to me. I get angry. I get shy. I lose my confidence. I cry about it.
Gain Eight Powder
I’ve tried this product called Gain Eight. I’ve taken eight bottles of it. No positive results at all. Sigh.
Ensure Milk Powder
So now, am taking Ensure Milk Powder in chocolate. It really is yummy. I take it on a daily basis. Am hoping this works.
Soon, I’ll start exercising. I think all I need is more rest. Seriously, am always on the go. Running errands for myself and others. I hardly have me time for myself. Well, let’s see how this goes after a few months.
Wish me luck!
