Here are simple things to remember in life :
1. Age is just a number, it doesn’t determine your mentality.
2. Think before you speak.
3. Never stoop down to an idiot’s level. Or it won’t make you any better.
4. Don’t confuse ego and pride. There’s a fine line between it that makes such a big difference.
5. An empty barrel makes the most noise.
6. You’re partner is not a punching bag.
I’ve been away from my blog for a while now. No lame excuses to give. But instead I’ve the brutal truth to share.
I’ve been in a total bad shape recently. How bad you may wonder? I broke down on one fine Friday while I was getting ready to work, all pumped up. Suddenly I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks. It went on and on. I couldn’t even stop it. I changed into my house clothes and went back under the sheets. Whipped up my phone and texted my bosses.
I’m exhausted and unhappy.
Family
I’m trying very hard to be a great daughter and sister. Trying hard to contribute to the daily household needs. Trying to provide Aizat with a comfortable life.
Somehow I feel like nobody appreciates me for anything that I try to do at home. I help them out in ways that I can. But whenever I need them, nobody is there for me. I feel very much alone. Maybe I shouldn’t be here with them. Maybe I’m nothing in their eyes.
Mean Green
In my struggle to make ends meet and pull through every month, I wish I had more.
Am currently spread across all accounts at work with my other business at hand to focus on.
Am in the middle of revamping jujuwiwitata’s at no such luck. I don’t have a supportive support system. Always pushing me down. Shooting down my ideas without even listening to a word that I utter.
The Great Indoors has finally launched. We’re currently working very hard trying to expand our clienteles. Working extra hard on it trying to spread the word.
I’m already handling three jobs and my financial needs are nowhere to match! This is tiring. This makes me want to give up. Should I take up a new job? Or should I take up more jobs?
Trying to pull through every month is tiring enough for me.
Friends
I am blessed with many. Some truly close. Some fairly close. I love them to bits. I hope to not be back stabbed like the many times I have been. I hope to have learnt my lessons of not being too nice to them and let them step all over me like a doormat.
Some of my friends are genuinely caring about me; this bunch is the one that have seen me at my lowest low and highest high. I love you guys and you know who you are.
Relationship
At this point of time, am not too sure what I have done to myself.
In 2008, I told myself I won’t date. It’s a waste of time and effort. I was hurt so bad back then. A break up that didn’t exactly had a reason behind it.
As years pass me by, I soften a bit. I opened up my heart to at least let some new people into it. I was told to let down my guard and give him a chance. Which I did, I was over the moon, happy beyond words. Getting to know each other was such a joyful journey. The similarities and differences was an interesting lesson.
However, I’ve never really been a lucky soul in the relationship department. Always getting dumped, cheated and used. It took a total turn. I had my arguments to it. But I kept quiet. You may wonder why? I’ve always believed that it’s good and best to respect other people’s decision. So mum it is.
It was really tough to digest but what choice do I have right?
So here I am now, sticking to what I know best.
Every guy’s best friend and not their dream girl. I’d live.
Health
My health has taken a toll on me. From tooth problems to my gastric kicking in again. Losing weight by the second. Always feeling lethargic. It feels like 2008 on repeat.
I can’t afford to go for a medical check up. I know if I went for one, the doctor is going to put me back on reflux pill and my weight will be monitored closely.
Insyallah I’d get out of this rut. Insyallah.
Every year things seems to get better. Maybe it’s just me. But I ain’t complaining.
Things seems to be looking up for me. Alhamdulillah.
It started off with the F1 weekend with Elya, Razwan and my dad. Traffic was madness I tell you. Parking was a bitch too. But for the love of the sport. We braved it all. But SIC should seriously buck up. Service, parking and shuttle was extremely poor. It was then followed up with a home cook dinner. The meal was delicious and I was moved by the gesture.
On the day itself, my awesome team took Hanah and I to Suchan for a lovely lunch. We were surpised with a cake.
Next up was a dinner with the family, sadly none of my siblings were there with us. We have a tradition of celebrating birthdays on the eve of the real day. So my parents and I had dinner together to celebrate my mother and I. It was a pretty decent dinner I must say. We had it at the legendary Jake’s steak house. I got my mum a necklace that she has been eyeing for a while. Dad who got tips from me, bought her the matching earings.
My boys (Elya, Erfan and Razwan) asked me out for dinner on my birthday night. Which I agreed upon. Thinking that it would be an intimate small group get together. However, when I got there I knew they had something up their sleeves. The table was so long. I did not know who they had invited. Nervous I was through out the night waiting for the others to arrive.
One by one they arrived. I had tears in my eyes seing so many of my dearest friends made time for me despite their busy schedule. At one point of the night, I was really quiet. Didn’t utter a word. I was truly overwhelmed.
I’m a lucky girl with wonderful friends. It’s my dearest and nearest that’s important to me.
I feel loved, grateful and overwhelmed all in one go. What more can a girl ask for?
Here’s what happened last year. Thank you and love you guys a lot! You know who you are 
-Prabal Gurung
Relationships. What do you think of it? As for me, it’s a crazy rollercoaster right. It has it’s ups and downs. Good days and bad days. Just like our glorious mane (hair). Haha.
I’ve been out of a relationship for almost two years now. Some may wonder why am I single for such a long period. While some might wonder why I chose this lonely path.
Truth to be told, I do get lonely at times. I do miss having someone to call my own. But braving the life solo is not all that bad.
I chose to not date but this does not mean that I am not interested. I am just saving myself from another heartbreak. I am straight if you are wondering.
I believe that if you want a relationship to work. You work for it to make it work. No excuses. You put in the effort, you put in the time. You’ve got to be considerate about your partner. Know his/her needs. Make them your priority too.
But if you can’t sacrifice for them. You might want to think again.
Till the day I meet a guy who can tick all my boxes and won’t break my heart. I’d rather be happy on my own. I’ve got splendid people around me who really cares about me. So yea, I am a happy single girl.
Cheers!
Am having a ball right now. The universe is good to me now. Pretty happy as off now. Alhamdulillah.
Update soon.
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- Juwita Jalil
Superwoman by Karen White
Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that’s missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me
Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can’t help but to wonder
If you’re talking ’bout me
We don’t talk the way we used to talk
It’s hurtin’ so deep
I’ve got my pride, I will not cry
But it’s makin’ me weak
I’m not your superwoman
I’m not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything’s okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby
I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You’re not hungry at all
You said you’d rather read the paper
And you don’t want to talk
You like to think that I’m just crazy
When I say that you changed
I’m convinced I know the problem
You don’t love me the same
You’re just going through the motions
And you’re not being fair
I’ve got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can’t help but care
I’m not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I’m not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything’s okay
Boy, I am only human (I’m only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I’m not your superwoman (Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo)
I’m not the kind of girl that you can let down (Hey)
And think that everything’s okay (Don’t let me down, don’t you let me down)
Boy, I am only human (I’m only human, yeah)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token (Ooh, ooh) of love from you to me
Oh, baby, look into the corners of your mind
I’ll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can’t be that superwoman that you want me to be
I’ll give my everlasting love if you’ll return love to me
I’m not your superwoman (Oh, no, oh, no)
I’m not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything’s okay
Boy, I am only human (I’m only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me (Oh, no)
If you feel it in your heart
And you understand me
Stop right where you are
Everybody sing along with me
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I’m the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me, oh, ho, ho
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, ooh, ooh, hoo
I need love
I need just your love
I’m not your superwoman (Oh, no)
I’m not the kind of girl that you can let down (You can let down)
And think that everything’s okay
Boy, I am only human (I’m only human)
This girl needs more than occasional (Hey, hey, hey, hey)
Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I’m not your superwoman
Got to love this song. It’s always a favourite of mine. Sue Ann introduced me to it. The lyrics are simple yet so direct. So guys listen up to this and understand. Haha.
1. What happened to self respect?
2. What happened to dignity?
3. What happend to being loyal to your partner?
4. Why are they so cheap?
5. Why are they constantly serving themselves as early dinner?
The sight of all this makes me want to barf. You disgust me. You really do.
