If you need an answer from me, all you need to do is merely ask. I’d gladly answer for as long as its not against my will or something too personal.
I’ve had one too many cases where people around me assume certain things. Which I believe is unfair for both parties. Why so? Both parties won’t know the real deal. Fyi, there’s always too sides of the story.
Save the drama instead shall we? So ask if you’re in doubt. Or if you need an explanation. Don’t keep mum. It gets you nowhere and might hurt you both.
Let it off your chest. Get the answer you deserve. Fine that closure within you.

From work to love to and everything for all that matter.

So where do you draw the line? Where do you stop? Where do you mix your feelings and professionalism?

Have you ever actually take a step back and recalculate your position in life?

If you haven’t, it’s high time you do. Set things straight. Chose the person who you’d rather be.

I’ve been having a ball lately. Life is all good in the hood baybeh.

Last Saturday was Urbanscapes 2010. This year, I was not a vendor. Instead I was there to enjoy myself with my colleagues and friends. Which turned out to be a blast. Had so much fun. Though we decided on going at the very last minute. It sure was well worth the heat. There was a lil drama in it. But all I can conclude is I had a good time with the bestest company. What more could a girl ask for ey?

How was your weekend? Here’s a recap on last year’s Urbanscapes.

At times like this, I wished that I had someone to turn to. But to no avail I have no special someone to turn to. So this blog should do. Haha. My ranting point after twitter.

So I thought I could rely on my friends. Some of them proved me wrong. What hurts most is the ones that I have known longer are the ones who don’t give two hoots. The newer ones are the ones asking me if am alright. They said they noticed a change in my status. How sweet.

I felt a pinch when I turned to the closest at this current point and got no response. Am not asking for an advice of sort. Just an ear to hear me out. A non-judgmental one would be even better. Sigh. It’s not just that, sometimes I amaze myself at my capability of always falling into the same stupid trap that some of my friends do. I fall for their old antiques. They do things to their convenient and not think of others. Yet, silly old soft-hearted me will succumb to it.

I seriously need to care less and buck up. Not let people walk all over me. To all my friends who will always think I will be there for you no matter what happens, think twice. Am getting really tired of if. Everything in life works both ways.

“Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down.”

- Oprah Winfrey

]]> http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/06/01/youre-just-here-for-the-free-ride/feed/ 0 http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/05/30/that-weekend/ http://www.juwitajalil.com/2010/05/30/that-weekend/#comments Sun, 30 May 2010 11:40:45 +0000 juwita http://www.juwitajalil.com/?p=929 I’ve not had a decent update for a while now. Why so? I’ve been busy with a lot of things. From work to family to friends.

Organized a BBQ party a few weeks back. It was a whole lot of fun. We had to invite new people to the BBQ. I brought my Brissy friends, Ummi invited her Japan friends and there was us the BBGSians. Oh let’s not forget two Subangnians as well.

The venue was at Ummi’s place, Astana Kasih. Her backyard is spacious and quite well lit. Mats were placed with balloons and candles too. We had fun on the mat. Some sat, some was laying down.

Played a few rounds of UNO and “Pembunuh & Polis” (Killer & Police). “Pembunuh & Pencuri” (Killer & Police)  is a game that Alia B taught us. It’s fun. Yet it’s stressful. It can take hours to actually catch the Pembunuh (Killer). How do you play it? The killer has to wink to kill their prey. The police must try to catch him/her. If he succeeds, game ends. We also played “Monyet-Monyet” (Monkey Monkey). One ball, a group and one monkey who has to try to catch the ball. Well, Alia was the Monkey throughout the night. We were pretty got players I must say.

We stayed til quite late, as Ummi’s dad Encik Nasir was not around. How generous of him to allow us to use his backyard for a BBQ! Gotta love him and his generosity!

A couple of pictures from that night. Should gather more often la people!

My not so little brother.

Lela, Izyan and Mot.

Incomplete. We missed you, Liyana.

The girls.

Me looking like a giant!

Erfan’s wishing balloon.

We were watching the balloon slowly disappearing into the black sky.

Erfan with his awesome blue tatas!

Shuhid aka Mot, the celebrated.

Ummi, the host.

- Juwita Jalil

- Juwita Jalil

I’ve lost two grandfathers, one grandmother, one step-grandmother, an uncle and a few friends throughout my 25 years.

Most of it was shocking. Some was a painful process. Nonetheless, it hurts. I miss them. It’s painful to watch them slip away from you.

Today, I watched a dear aunt of mine laying on the bed with all sorts of tubes going through her nose and mouth. It looked painful. But she didn’t budge. Called out her name with no response. She’s in the deepest sleep known to man, coma. I miss how jovial she was. Making jokes. Remembering going for Hari Raya at her place. How she loves coming over to our house. Eating the cookies I made.

There was this one time, when I was much younger. I served her my burnt cookies and she still at them with a big smile on her face.

As I was sitting next to her with a Yasin in hand. I thought I saw her moving her head. I thought I saw it twice. Maybe am delusional at that point. But even my dad said he saw it. My dad touched her hand. There was no response.

Family members have gathered. Hoping she will fight. Hoping for a miracle.

I’ve learn my lesson. I won’t let the people I love slip away. I will cherish each and everyone of my family members and friends. I won’t hold back in love. We will never know when our time is up or theirs for all that matters.

I love my family. I love my friends. I love you.

xx

p/s : Don’t go just yet Teh. We all love you. Fight.

pp/s : By the way, my lovely aunt has passed on.

So my secret place is somewhere near home. Not so crowded, serves good food at a reasonable price. The ventilation isn’t great but I just love this place. It’s cozy. A few pictures from the night.

We watched When in Rome. I think it’s one of the most best romantic comedy. It’s just hillarious.

Josh Duhamel played the character of Nick. He is the sweetest guy ever. Never giving up on the girl of his dream. He kept his face and played his game real well. What happened to men? Why aren’t there any like him?! I could use a Nick right now.

Kristen Bell played the character of Beth. The career minded girl who is doing so well with her job. Loving it to pieces. Never making time for love. I remember this quote she said “If he is more important than my job, then I am in love”. How true. How appropriate.

I truly enjoyed the movie. Yea it may be something that has an ending you can predict. Yet there are the goofy moments and the mystery to it as well.

Here’s Anderson, Layla, Liz and I at the movie. Great bunch of colleagues. Gotta love them! Life would suck without them at the office.