Was talking to someone really dear to me. Someone I’ve jumped hurdles for. Someone who I would take a bullet without a blink. Someone I would give up my life for. Someone who I would sacrifice my happiness in exchange of a smile on their face.
But when I encounter a situation that I need a solution, I was named a price higher than it was for their more padded friends.
I was in shock, humiliated in some ways. But as usual, I keep it to myself. I must really be unimportant to you.
So deeply I wanted to hold him close,
And to whisper sweet words into his ear,
But I knew that love involves some falling,
And I am awfully afraid of falling.
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It definitely has been a while. You’ve been missed dearly.
If you truly love someone, all you want is for them to be happy, even if deep down, all you want is for you to be their happiness.
There’s always some truth behind just kidding, knowledge behind I don’t know, emotion behind I don’t care, and pain behind I’m okay.
I’ve come across many personal life experience where my intuition was right. Maybe they were a gentle warning to me. Some was a good sign and some was a bad sign.
2003, a particular name was always mentioned in the conversations between my ex and I. True enough, they dated behind my back.
I remember this particular one in July 2011, I was at the happiest peak of my life. It was definitely my best and worst year. I was truly content with everything I had, it was everything and more that I could have wished for.
In that month, I noticed some odd texting between this guy I was dating and someone. I kept mum despite noticing how inappropriate the time that the SMSs were received. I felt uneasy but I’m a firm believer of trust. I thought to myself if there was something, he would tell me.
A month down the road, we had the talk. He isn’t ready and doesn’t want anything serious. Was I right to assume the coincidence? I didn’t simply because I respect the person and the future situation.
But then months down the road, there was B&W prove of how chummy things got. Perhaps it did happen behind my back when I noticed the oddness. I should have trusted my instincts.
Sometimes the better side of me tells myself, always give the benefit of the doubt to the other person. Or maybe I think highly of someone I care and respect, that I give all my trust to them.
I’ve iced up again because I’m too scared and this applies to all aspects of my life; work, family, friends and heart.
So that popped up in a conversation. Saying you ought to stick to your principles. But I strongly say it’s just a matter of saying. It all boils down to your actions. Cause I am an exhibit of words being said out of your principles. I was never given the fairness that should have justified my chance.
Sigh. The world holds no justice.