There’s a sharp pain at the heart right now.
Two reasons to this.
1. Gastric building up and reflux is back.
2. Ergh, let’s not get started on it. I could strangle someone to death about it.
Enough ranting. Happy Friday.
Bismillah.
Abused
Having a big heart is a great thing but it can also be your greatest weakness that some will abuse it.
Mirror Image
Standing in front of the mirror. I see a girl looking back at me. She looks familiar but I can’t recall.
She looks sad, tired, lifeless. Looks like her colour got drained out. Her eyes. So big yet so cold. It has no shimmer. Doesn’t sparkle like it used to.
She touches her limp hair. What happened? Where did the thick lustrous black hair go? Friends used to envy her hair. Wanted to know tips to it.
She looked down, rubbed her extremely flat tummy. It hurts inside. Where does all the food she consume go to? She can feel her chest tightening. It hurts but no medication can cure it.
She turns around, looking at her rear. There was once a bum. But now its just ugly crumply space at her pants.
She stretches her leg forward. She now has ghostly white legs. Gone were the days she’d run around enjoying the sun. Gone was her playtime.
Who’s that girl looking right back at me?
I don’t know her anymore.
Sometimes
Sometimes there is no next time, no time outs, no second chances. Sometimes it’s now or never.
Needs and Wants
Finally stepped into a mall today. To be more specific, it was One Utama (OU).
It felt like a completely foreign place to me. So many new shops, the layout has changed and many more.
I do go to OU but normally I park at a specific area and head to just that particular shop and am done.
Since, Aizat and I some spare time and he needs to get a few items.
We decided to walk about.
Passed by many of my favourite brands and they were all on sale. I know I need many new things or is it my personal want? Am getting a bit confuse here.
Walked in, touched the pretty clothes, flipped the price and place it to its original place and finally walk out empty handed.
I’ve been like this for a while now. Always thinking in my head “What if…”. Often worrying about sudden urgent needs.
Take for instant, there’s this bag from Rabeanco. Priced at RM1000+. A basic black bowling bag with some silver studs. Oh my love for studs. I really really wanted it. The leather is uber soft and I know it can last me a few years. Despite my existing Nine West being torn and all. I put it back on the shelf.
Few months later, at the Zara store which is on sale. I saw a similar bag with no studs, slightly smaller but genuine leather too. Priced at say 15% of the Rabeanco bag. Did I buy it? No.
There’s other things in life that is more important. Handbags, shoes, clothes can wait. I need to start saving. I want to travel and I want a certain dream to come true.
But maybe, I do deserve something good in my life once in a while? No?
Btw, how exactly do we differentiate needs and wants? It ain’t that easy I must say.
Love Is Not A Plan
In life, LOVE is never planned nor does it happen for a reason. But when LOVE is real, it becomes ur PLAN for life & ur reason for living.
Baggu Bags Now Available at jujuwiwitata’s
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Seemingly Perfect Lives
With so many blogs peeking into other people’s (seemingly perfect) lives constantly surrounding us, it’s easy to lose track of our own in the shuffle. Some people are born knowing what their path in life should be but for the rest of us, it isn’t that easy. Sometimes it takes more than a just dream — a mentor, a specialized education, money, a plan. When you do finally find the right path, everything else begins to unfold as it should. I took a few chances this year — the kind where you feel your stomach drop for a second and wonder, “What have I just done?” Those are the chances that make you feel alive though. I just kept repeatedly telling myself, “When you put yourself out there, great things usually happen” and I feel like I’m wrapping up the most fulfilling year yet (trust me, it wasn’t easy). If you’re unhappy or unfulfilled, It’s up to you to make that shift. Embrace what makes you unique instead of erasing it in the process. Put your best foot forward, let the entire world know what you want to do with your life and then conspire to make it happen. 2012 is right around the corner and it’s never too late to do what you love and love what you do.
- Nubby
Cold Nights
It’s getting colder by the day in KL. Maybe this global warming is sort of screwing up our weather.
This kind of weather reminds me so much of Autumn/Winter in Brisbane.
It was cold and rainy. But my heart was always warm then.
Now life is one big challenge. How I sometimes wish am still a student. Where things might be slightly easier on me. But then again, my life has never really been that easy.
I’ve to work tomorrow, when so many people I know are on leave. I’ve many things to do. I wish I can slack but I can’t.
I wish I was rich. Have pretty little things in life. Have an amazingly meaningful relationship.
I wish I was on an island vacation right now. My legs are starting to look pale already.
